more lonely eyes

Few days ago Dogshit turned on the TV while I was trying to sleep.
(I sleep in front of TV)
He wanted to watch a silly game show and it was 2am so I woke up unpleasantly and said,
'Hey,you.you..your sister is lonely!'
He bursted into laugh and started to make fun of me.

..
Yes,I'm lonely.not because I'm single,not because some of my really good friends are too busy to hang out.
I'm just lonely.Like everyone else on this planet.

So I speak love and draw lonely eyes.

Day too soon

Day too soon-Sia(just click and play)


Day too soon colored

Day too soon sketch(yellow green+light green+red)

I bought Sia's latest album'Some People Have Real Problems' 2months ago in London.
It was a new world.While I was listening to it,I could see scenes,I could feel emotions she wanted to show.
And then I thought,this album will be one of my lifetime OST.

'Day Too Soon'is the 3rd track of the album.And I fell in love from the first second of the song.
I've been wanting to draw it over 2months and tried twice and failed once.
And today I drew and painted it.
Probably I will draw again but now I'm happy that I did this.

These days I feel like I'm becoming non-human being.
But still,I can draw.I can breathe.I can smile when I listen to the music.
And sometimes I wait until it's dark and lonely and then cry too.

I wanted to be a musician.I wanted to be a comfort.
But I draw and only comfort myself..yet.

ps-I really like this drawing.

big holiday(not of mine,of Korea)

ChuSeok(15th August of the lunar calender) is one of the biggest holiday in Korea.
It's similar to Thanksgiving day,Koreans meet their family&relatives and thank the year's harvest and wish luck to the full moon.
This year's holidays were short(just 3 days include Sunday) though.

Anyways.
People like me aren't busy during the holiday so I did---





















Thanks for their energies,Dogshit&EJing.
If you see my eyes(those) on the street,smile for a moment for me!
And I'm going on&on&on.

For more pictures,click here

don't you feel this too every once in a while?

When you see your mom and her colleagues fighting against the police across the street,
And you are on your way home,
And you hear somebody yelling'yea~fight!',
So you turn your face and found that he was only a highschool boy.
A mindless innocent highschool boy who freeze after few seconds of your cold stare.
And you flow to your mom without second thought and try to take her away from the crazy scene.
People around you and her watch you struggle and wonder who's that strange hair tattooed girl?


Don't you feel this?
That life is nothing but a shadow,
That drinking,people meeting,music listening,and things we do everyday,things we dream everyday -are just so meaningless,don't you feel that too?

And all you have is also nothing so you think that you can't do anything.
haven't you ever felt that?

sharpen up after an explosion

sketch with orange&blue color pencils.

inked.

When I was young I couldn't understand mom's behavior.
She always pretented to not understood even when things were so obvious.
Especially when bad things happened.
But as I grow older I started to understand.
She's been protecting herself from hurts.
I have lots of similar part with her so I did that too unconciously..

I met someone in March.I even drew him couple of times in here.
But Friday,my heart bursted and now I think I have to sharpen up my senses.
No matter how it hurts,now I need to.
I told to dad I'll be real this year.
I was wearing winter clothes in the summer and was pretending I wasn't sweating,I was ok but i was cheating on myself.
Now it's time to restore my senses,time to wear lighter clothes.

Still my blood stains my shirts but it stopped bleeding.

a path

(click hereand open the song first)



Leita in the wind sketch

Leita in the wind inked.

This is my friend Leita.She had stayed in Korea for 2 years and left yesterday.
She's a kind of person who I wanted to be.
She calls herself a global warrior-She's a traveller who has a dream.
I don't know when she will be able to read this blog but I just wanted to say here.
I was listening to the CDs she made for me today and realized I wanted to draw her.

Hey!Leita!
I wish you the best.
And I will always look forward to hearing from you and your stories about new worlds.
And someday,I hope to see you again.It'd be great if it's not in Korea.hahaha.

take care,girl!
(Her blog link is on the left.named Leita in Korea)

ps-This is one of my favorite Korean song,by Lee Tzsche.
She ruled my early 20s.Lee Tzsche was my idol.
I thought of the song while I was drawing Leita.
There's a path in front of us.