look back.

Stop sighing and look back.
You got people who miss,worry you.
Right.maybe you were in a wrong place.maybe you were staring at wrong direction.
That's why you're so exhausted right now.
So.
Look around.You've got friends.Warm,healthy relationships.


Sorry.I drew this last Sunday but I couldn't find time to upload.
I've been working until 1~2am these last 7~8days.It's been super crazy.I was almost dead.(well..not just because of works,some people at work made me drained)
But luckily I wasn't dead and talk about hope and warmth again.

hope you know

Ssam partly colored

2nd sketch

Rough sketch

You know I used to cry everytime we met.
I could cry in front of you 'cause you were always warm,reliable.
You tried to see the world in my eyes when I talked to you.

You were brushing teeth.You were talking about your mom and dad.And then you started to...
..You know,It was me who always cried.

While you turned your head away and tried to hide that weak shaking,I wanted to give you a hug as you always did to me but I couldn't.
I wanted to tell you 'lay your burden down.'or 'my poor dearest.you're doing your best.'
Instead,all I could do was hesitating behind your back.
And hoped that you know.

Let's not cry anymore,my dearest friend.We're doing well.very well.

Was it you?

nightmare colored(?)

nightmare sketch

B digged the ground and found a big bag.
I asked her if my camera was still inside.
She opened the bag and passed it to me.It was a year ago and this still works I said.
And she took out a skull-rotten but white real human skull-and showed it to me.
Don't you remember?It's T.You and I killed and buried him last year.Remember?B said.
No..I didn't kill anyone,I just knew that you buried my camera.
Suddenly B's eyes turned red.No?you don't remember?It was us.
No.T died on his vacation.He had a heart attack I heard.
WE KILLED HIM.YOU AND I DID-
And B turned to T.
T was laughing with his skull on his hand.

People say that dreams are always in black and white.but in my dream,only me and skull were black and white.


B-was my friend when I was in middle school.I haven't seen her for almost 10years.
T-was the one who died last year.

Because of this strange nightmare,I had to suffer from back/neck pain all day.
Strange and Strong dream..

We fear

3girls inked


3girls 2nd sketch


3girls 1st sketch

Here are 3 girls.
First one,39years old virgin,had 12years younger boyfriend 2 years ago.(that was her 2nd and latest relationship)
Most of her friends are married or divorced.Maybe only these 2 girls now she's with are the last single friends of hers.
She haven't slept with guys but she's heard too many things and seen too many things.
She hasn't felt loneliness for her 39years but she's lonely now.That confuses her.
Suddenly this strange,extremely strong feeling came to her and for the first time in her life,she fears what comes next.

Second one,31years old,everybody loves to hang with her.
She meets lots of new people but in the end,all the guys she's met go to her friend.not she.
And she realized that she's been used by her friend.(Her friend looks better than her in guy's eyes.)
She guesses nobody would fall in love with her.She thinks she's not attractive at all in that way.
She hates to admit but she fears.She fears all the guys who's not interested in her but still can sleep with her.

The last one,29years old,youngest of these three so of course the most fearless.
She's met lots of people.And fell in love this year.
But her love wasn't a nice guy so she tried to forget him but she couldn't.
While she was trying to find the guy's pages on the internet,she found that he's been with another girl while she met,broke up,missed him.
Everything he had done to her was lie.She thought that this kinda situations are only in movies or sick dramas but it happened to her.
She loved to meet people.And now she fears.Now she knows there're really insane people out there.

There're another girls still-30years old,broke up with her boyfriend because of his mother but found that she's pregnant.(and actually lost her father 2months ago.)
29years old,so broke but had to support her parents so got a loan from insurance company.

We don't know what's going to happen to us.
Maybe a better tomorrow is waiting for us.Nobody knows.
But we doubt 'better tomorrow'.

For the first time in our lives..we fear the future.We fear bigger pains,deeper sorrows,fear almost everything what might come next.
..We just get by every single day.