born collector

born collector

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There's a Japanese comic book called 'GLAMOROUS'.
It's a story about cyborgs which want to be real humen.
When the main charactor visits his friend(another cyborg),his friend was putting newspapers and pictures on the wall.
He asked what he's doing then he said.
'I'm collecting things I'm interested.Things I like,things I dislike-which identify myself.'

Then I realized that people are born collector.
Whether we show or not we have taste..not exactly taste,things we like or don't like.
Something that can distinct me from the others.


Last week I moved into a new office room.
And I spent more than 2hours for doing these.
Yea I was born collector and I like to show so I needed to do these before I work.






Not completed but can you smell me?

I'm walking,questioning,listening--

(I've been/I will be) walking,questioning,listening--

Sketch

Rough sketch in Orange colored pencil.

I had a tutor when I was in highschool.
He tried to teach me to get a better grade at math but I liked to talk to him since he was the most interesting person I had met.(And a really good listener too.)
I asked him why only human can't live naturally.Why we harm this beautiful world,why we were born,why we talk,why we think,why we can't listen to the plants.
And I asked him why do I always question.Why do I wonder about things that some people don't even notice its existence.And if my questions can't make any differences,why do I question.
Most of times he said'alright,but first let's~~'but one day he said-
'Don't think your questions are useless.They might be answerless but they will take you to a different world.You might suffer because of them but never regret.You're already better than the others who doesn't wonder.So keep wondering.Questioning,asking and listen.Always remember this.'


There're me.
Highschool girl skitsch who wonders about anything,everything.
22year old skitsch who lost a lover,family,friend.
24~26year old skitsch who wandered foreign countries.
30year old skitsch who is still walking,questioning,listening.



ps-
I just lost a job in Japan which I've been preparing almost 2 months.Well..I already started to work for them on and off.
But Saturday they canceled on me suddenly and said they don't need another team.(which was for me)
I couldn't sleep that night but I remembered this story my tutor told me.
..Right.I can't go wrong as long as I walk,ask,listen.That job wasn't meant to be mine.This isn't the time.
I thought that I'd be very frustrated and upset if I lose the job but ummm..how can I describe..I feel fine.

April.colors.people and me

love is a song_DJ soulscape

love is a song-DJ soulscape

Oh..It's been a while since I wrote the last post.(uh..a month?hehe)
A lot of things happened.Nothing really big but so many things were distracting me.
But time was passing while I thought that I got nothing to write.
Yes.A good friend of mine left this month.
Yes.I was terribly busy this month.
Yes.I was so tired of being waiting.
Yes.I got a crazy cold which lingered over 3weeks.

And most of all I tried my best to enjoy this lovely season.


Saw this back on my way to work.
Yea spring came to his ankle bone.

Another day at a subway exit.Uhh.This guy was so much cuter than this~

Ladies in a train.

Somebody texting

somebody dozing

And my hair starts growing crazy.

see?

Soon it'll be like this.


-And some colors I'm in love with.-

Morning green leaves with Adobe.

New shoes.

Red,blue nails and a Rainbow ring.

Night green leaves with city lights.

SPRING!!!!!!!!

Spring

Sketch

SPRING COMES TO EVERYWHERE!!!!

1)Sunblock scent-
When I was a kid,mom used to rub sunblock over my face before I go out and play.
I hated it,'cause it smelled like chemicals.(and I also didn't like that unnatural whitish color.)
Since the weather gets warm,I remembered that somebody told me I better wear sunblocks everyday.
So I did,and that reminded me of the sunblock I hated more than 20years ago.

2)A sign of Spring-
My mom loves freesia.As I know,freesia is mom's only favorite.
She loves the color and the scent of it,so when she smells the flower,she smiles like a teenage girl.
I like yellow.I don't really know about flowers.
But I love to see her smile.
So I buy and put them in a vase.

3)Walts of spring-
This guy called 이승열'Yi Sung Yol',makes me feel blessed.
I'm lucky to speak Korean since he sings and speaks Korean.
He's a Korean singer song writer.
He had a concert named 'walts of spring' for 4 days.
I went to his concert 2 times,(though I wanted to go all 4days)and had to work 2 all nights.

4)Scarf-
One of the reason I don't like winter is too many clothes,but there's one scarf I like(which is too light for winter.)
Wearing this scarf means that spring came.


I'm dragging my feet,my back hurts,my hair is a mess but.
It's spring.
I might look tired and sleepy but inside of me,I'm very delightful.


Me from 20~21years ago.

The entrance of my apartment.small golden bells.lovely yellow.

numb

pencil re-lined

sketch

Heart says 'I'm so ready to go.'
And they say 'I'll talk to you soon.please wait.'
Some good friends left saying 'Everyone is alone.'
The employer says 'I need you here.'

And I was so sad,disappointed,alone and mostly tired..
So I built layers around me to block those senses.

I went numb.
This winter is too long.
Waiting is the most useless thing

Isolate

inked

sketch

I separated me from you.
'Cause you are so fucking stupid.
You talk about all the useless shits in the world for all day.
You stick to eachother like you are the best friends,but after you get off,you're completely strangers.
You go tell your friends that you're an artist,but you don't even understand what you're drawing at work.
You idiots.

You may call me weird,arrogant,gloomy,or a true artist in a sarcastic way,but
I don't act like this when I'm not with you.
I just can't like you.I..I..really dislike you and it bothers me 'cause I have to share the same space with you 6days a week,10hours a day.

And you know what?
I know at least what I'm doing,where I want to go,what I can and what I can't.

You only got mouths while I got eyes and ears.

9years

9 years

sketch


The 1st of March,2000 was my first day of this job I've been doing.
It's been 9 years.already.
Of course I didn't do this full 9 years,I did some other stuffs and went to a new country for 6 months.
But after all I ended up doing this.Animation.

Sometimes I really hate my job.sometimes it's really fun.
I calculated roughly how many sheets of paper I drew for 9 years.(well..actually about 7 years.)
Almost one hundred thousand sheets.
And I talked to my self.'wow.skitsch.You've done a lot.'

Some people say that I'm lucky to have a job I can enjoy.
I used to tell them I don't enjoy but now I see,yes.This one fits on me.

After this 9 years I see a new way.Not completely different,but a big change.
I'm ready to go.I'm going on.