Waiting

At Han's Deli(take-out snack bar)

I bought a small croquisbook and a cool sharp pencil.
And Started to spend waiting times for drawing.
I usually draw when I'm alone but I wanted to remember what I'm feeling on the street.
I used to hate people watching me drawing.I'm quite shy I think.
So I decided to pretend that I'm alone,listening music.Though I was in a place anybody can see what I'm doing.

Sunday I went out for dinner with my brother DogShit(from now,'DS').
The place was crowded,we had to wait about 25mins.So I drew these while 6 or more foreigners watching me.
DS is always interested in my drawings and askes me few questions about them.

DS:Is he sleeping?
SK:No.Something stings his heart.He feels it and tries to focus on.
DS:What stings his heart?
SK:I don't know.He doesn't even seem to know.


DS:What's wrong with this face?
SK:It's sad macho cresent moon.
DS:Why sad?
SK:Because he's old and all alone.


SK:It's me.
DS:What's this on your T-shirt?You're not wearing this!
SK:It's a giant eye.It scares birds.
DS:I didn't know that my sister was a scarecrow.


길이 아닌곳은 가지 마 Don't go outside of the way
남들이 간 곳만 가 Just follow what others have been
부탁이고 명령이고 소원이야 It's an asking an order and a wish
After reading these lines DS asked just one question.
Why does she want us to follow the way?
I told him,because that's what she's for.She's a human roadsign.
But actually It was something I want to tell myself.


Someone told me yesterday that I'm too selfish.
That's what I always heard from someone I care.
And from the moment,I can't find anything to say.
It hurts more and more.There's nothing I can do.
I'm emotionally retarded I feel.